I've had a growing feeling inside me recently that if we didn't hide so much, there would be less need to hide in the first place. That if we gently shared when we felt fear or doubts, or when we felt proud of our accomplishments or happy something's worked – we wouldn't feel so ashamed of our emotions. We wouldn't feel like we must put on a show as it must be 'just us' experiencing that. That everyone else is more talented/less anxious/a better person/finding it easy.
This will be an ongoing series called "To be honest...". Giving me a chance to practice creative skills that I'm not yet very practiced at, to allow myself to play and to try new things and for the love of god try to get it online without wincing at the thought of people seeing it. This is so hard when you own a business, how much do you share? We'll have to see. All I know is that when you do open up, you find everyone's in or has been in exactly the same spot as you, and then when you stop feeling so sorry for yourself, suddenly you're not so stuck anymore and your business can carry on kicking some ass.
So, back to the first To Be Honest: Replace perfect with awesome. I often find that nothing is 'perfect'; whether it's my work, a situation or an outcome, I'm too busy moving the goalposts further away to just appreciate the awesomeness of it all and end up sitting in a downward spiral of shame, easing my feelings with Tangy Cheese Doritos. So I'm replacing 'perfect' with 'awesome' in the hopes that it will encourage me to play creatively, to allow mistakes (before the client presentation, obviously...), to not be scared of starting an idea in case the end result is not 110% deemed-the-best-thing-ever-by-all-the-human-race and to appreciate the present as it is, not how I imagined it would be.
Here's to awesomeness. Can't wait to see what it has in store.